Poem:  Warrior Diva

Poem: Warrior Diva

Written by:  Laura Moreno-Davis (June 2017)

From my shell one sees petite, beauty and a fine young lady
Yet, no one knows the journey of my life
No one understands the pain of my childhood
No one’s walked a mile in my shoes
A Warrior Diva (has been born)

Neither white, nor black…so what the heck are YOU?
Never am I Latin or Mexican enough
Just a fair skinned olive girl from a Midwest steel town
Before JLo made being Latina “cool”
Before being “exotic” was a hot commodity in high demand
Never fitting in and never feeling good enough
I tried to blend in every which way I could
Looking Hispanic…but sounding black
From hairstyles and how I dressed
To becoming an AKA and the men I chose
A Warrior Diva (has been born)

Empty, insecure and completely lost
Mistake after mistake—all to fill a void
Looking for love in all the wrong places
A father who really wasn’t mine
A mother who’d gone emotionally M-I-A
Family secrets carried to the grave
It took four long painful decades
And eight years of pure and utter hell
Broken down to my raw core ‘til I was almost nothing
A Warrior Diva (has been born)

Abused every which way but by his hands
Yet murdered countless times by his words and deeds
Tongue more deadly than the sharpest of swords
Abandoned, dismissed, disrespected and deceived
Surely nothing good could ever result
From something so destructive and toxic
I mean how much and how long have I really hated myself
To inflict on me so much pain by giving away all my power
But from the pit of hell and bottomless grief
Emerged a totally new me
A Warrior Diva (has been born)

Real strength…Fierce courage
And finally SELF-LOVE
I found ME, myself & I for the first time ever
Able to embrace ALL of me from head to toe
Forgiving myself and letting a lot of stuff go
Gone are the shackles that imprisoned me for so long
Gone are the days and nights of pain & sorrow
Gone are the rivers of tears I cried
Gone are the feelings of deep sadness & loneliness
Gone are the questions of “Am I freaking crazy?!?!”
A Warrior Diva (has been born)

A phoenix has risen from the ashes
Taking my rightful place on this earth
Going forward with new zeal for life
Finally knowing what it feels to be truly happy
Experiencing JOY and PEACE even in my solitude
Grateful for every precious moment from here on out
Enjoying so many new things for the 1st time in my life
Taking nothing for granted and being true to myself
Setting healthy boundaries and learning to say “No”
Shielding my spirit from all that’s unhealthy
Honoring me for the woman I’ve become
A Warrior Diva (has been born)

 

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