FINAL EDITION: Love Letters Of A Narcissist - Vol. 6

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the NarcX! Today is his 50th Birthday (June 30, 1968). I feel it's just right to end this series on such a big day. 

These were a little tougher to retype. Some of the words really struck a cord and a nerve - especially in that last entry. Every sweet word was a LIE. He called me his "best friend", "soulmate", and "lifetime partner" - REALLY?!?!?! 

They can come across so charming and romantic during their grooming and love bombing phases! Looking back I can't believe what a fool I was to have "bought" all the LIES that he was selling. I couldn't see him for what he really was because I was drowning in grief after the loss of my dad and in a new state clear across the country.

Enjoy these last few "love letters" from my "beloved" NarcX. Mind you, he took FULL CREDIT for writing these, but as you'll see that was yet another LIE.


ILY (aka "I Love You")
Dated: 4/15/2008

A Special World

A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

Fake Author:  Charles Clifford Hill, Jr
Real Authors/Owners: Sheelagh Lennon / Surendar Chowdary Vattikuti
Sources: 
Love Poems & Quotes #01 & PoemHunter.com


ILY (aka "I Love You")
4/23/2008
**Day After My BDay**

Laura,

I just wanted to shoot off this email before I got busy with my day. I truly enjoy our time together and I am glad that we were able to spend your bday together in the midst of our busy schedules.

"You are my queen, support, best friend, partner, lover, wife, and life time mate. I know we will continue to grow and stronger and stronger in our blessed relationship.

I just want to tell you THANK YOU FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE."

Have a productive and blessed day.

I Love you yesterday, today, tomorrow, and forever (Agape).

Author:  Charles Clifford Hill, Jr.


ILY (aka "I Love You")
5/5/2008

 Yet another stolen poem and passed off as one of his “original poetry writings” written just for me!

Yet another stolen poem and passed off as one of his “original poetry writings” written just for me!

My love is like an ocean
It does down so deep
My love is like a rose
Whose beauty you want to keep.

My love is like a river
That will never end
My love is like a dove
With a beautiful message to send.

My love is like a song
That goes on and on forever
My love is like a prisoner
It's to you that I surrender.

Fake Author:  Charles Clifford Hill, Jr
Real Author: Sacred Garden
Source:  PoemHunter.com


ILY ("I Love You")
5/11/2008

Today

Today, you are my best friend, soulmate, and lifetime partner
Today, God has blessed us with another opportunity to spend valued time together on this earth
Today, is another day that we learn more about each other and fuse together
Today, I kissed you before leaving for work as an expression of my heart
Today, I know someone lost their soulmate, partner, best friend, or wife
Today, someone didn't tell that special person that they love them 
and will never have the opportunity again to say so that they can hear it
Today, is a day that will never be repeated in life
Today, Tomorrow and Forever...
I want you to know that I love you from the depths of my soul and heart
Laura, you are my everything and everyday
I am glad to have you in my life and I appreciate you very much.

Love,

Author:  Charles Clifford Hill, Jr.
aka "My NarcX"


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Thank you for joining me on this journey that has been healing for me and like taking a little bit more of my voice and power back! My goal is to expose #narcissists, educate as many women as possible, and advocate for better/more resources to bring light to this topic.

This brings the end of our "Love Letters" series...at least for now. I have 8 years worth of journals and these came from just one. I'm not ready to read through the rest of this one, much less dive into the others. Why haven't I burned them? Because there may be a book or two worth of content in them. I believe there is something more I'm meant to do with them...just don't know what yet. So stay tuned!!

Thank you again for reading and I hope it helps wake someone up to the depths of the lengths a narcissist will go to hoover and love bomb you into their control. 

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